Laying on the operation table was Sally, digesting the news that had been communicated to her by the doctor. She kept replaying how excited she was earlier that morning about how well the procedure would turn out bringing back so sort of normalcy to her life. What followed was only natural, the shock, the disappointment, and the blame especially why she didn’t avail herself earlier. The trail of thought was interrupted by the examination lamp being turned off and the assisting nurse informing her to head to the doctor’s office. After sitting across from the doctor and listening to the various options that would salvage the situation accompanied by the costs involved barely making sense of how she let it get this far. Roughly ten minutes later she only had one question to ask, “how long do I have?”
You would think this question was from the need to know, how much she needed to scramble up to pay the foreseeable bill, how long the options were viable so that she could discuss the way forward with her husband or even the consequences if nothing was done but in this case, she needed time to process things. Everything was spinning out of her control. The moment she left the premises, her first call was to her best friend letting her know she was on her way. She knew at that particular moment it was her kind of vibe that would ease the burden, for her family would only escalate the worry. All she wanted was to catch her breath. We all have that person who when you meet up, talk and, things seem not as dire.
Tani, Sally’s best friend knew from the tone of her voice her friend was being beaten while still down. It should be noted that Sally was not having things going her way for a while now. As a glass of wine was served by Tani in that awkward silence, Sally reached into her bag, removed her phone, placed it on the table facing Tani, and took a sip of the wine, waiting to see her friend’s reaction. “This is quite a list you’ve got”, Tani commented as she went through it. Sally had made a list of the things that she thought would have been handled better leading up to this moment in time. The what-ifs statements are our biggest demons in life and just as Tani told Sally how the list revealed the inner battles she had been having and it was time to let them go by forgiving herself on how the events on that list unraveled, so will I tell you today.
Regardless of what the list entails, we have to be familiar with it and forgive ourselves for what you did or didn’t do. Dwelling on it will only open up room for self-condemnation but with letting go and accepting things with the mindset of learning from them. Be it the good or the bad that has happened don’t feel tied down to the actions you did or didn’t do since at that moment in time that was your viable option. On Sally’s list, she highlighted how her selfless and understanding nature had cost her two solid albums and a grand tour. Her career was literally hanging on a balance. She blamed putting her family needs before hers but when asked if she would have done anything differently, she said no. This was because she had finally realized during that period of sacrifice what she initially wanted out of life and the minor mishaps in life shouldn’t define or phase her, but only remind her to stay focused on the things ahead. Yes, maybe things would have been better if she did things differently but it would have hosted her something else. For her being a renowned star would never come close to the family she had built.
Don’t let foregone choices bear a place in your life or the aftermaths of them make you feel inadequate. We are products of our choices and that is a responsibility on its own. How many pity parties will you hold before you realize that the world does not owe you anything, magnifying your misfortunes doesn’t solve the issue at hand because no one cares and if they do, you are still the one in control. Knowing how to pick up yourself fast enough when you fall, being present in the moment and not letting things that happened or will happen to make you lose momentum takes practice. The time to start is now since the worst and the best is yet to come and as I have been told, the trees are only as strong as the wind.
No pitty parties! Love the read! Your writing is inspiring.keep going
Thank you for the love!
Good read Eva!
Humbled that you enjoyed it.
“How many pity parties will you hold before you realize that the world does not owe you anything” Powerful statement there. I liked the suspense,, Is there part 2?
If the public wants part 2, we can work out something.
I like it, keep on
I really loved this one.You are an amazing writer😂
I am glad, thank you.
Thanks Eva for the great read. That k you for reminding us this very vital facts that we often forget. Now fast we pick ourselves up when we fall and being present in any moment does the magic. Asante sana great talent
Thanks Eva for the great read. Thank you for reminding us this very vital facts that we often forget. How fast we pick ourselves up when we fall and being present in any moment does the magic. Asante sana great talent
Thank you so much Metrine.